So The Goverment Is Shut Down

      Well here it is 12:19 am and I am listening to C-SPAN.  And what do I hear ? A lot of double talk from everyone of the people in our government. One blaming the other for the shutdown . Gee what should we do ? Well first off everyone of them should be voted out as soon as possible! While we  are in shutdown everyone of them should be docked pay for everyday there is no government. It is their job and they are not doing it.

      The more I think about it there should be a law where we can impeach each and every one of them for non-performance. Let's start to go one further, Let's start to bring jobs back to the USA and stop giving other countries our money. Also we need to remind these people in government they work for us ! They are not our bosses ! They are only there because we the people voted them in office.

      Now with a lot of this said why will we never see any of this happening ? Because there are too many greedy people who make too much money and will do anything they can to keep making as much money as they can and leave the rest of us in the dust. I can see why the rest of the world sees us as money grubbing fat lazy people . Not enough of us have gotten up and done anything to change anything , Yes I am just as bad most of the time. I have my demons that force me into situations that can cause me to hide from my duties. I know that can be looked at as a no excuse reason.

     So what do I do ? Well this is the only thing I can think of at this time to do is just blog and hope I can get enough people to think and maybe start a change. Bottom line who do I think is at fault for this Shutdown? All of them , both sides, and yes you can add all those big wig company owners who want to stay greedy and make as much money as they can. My biggest question when is enough, enough ?

Is This A Sign ?

    I was going to write a blog about used too, I think I had written one already , as in used to play guitar, used to do artwork, etc. Well Today I got a nice surprise. You see a long time ago we used to have a bank account with BOA ( Bank Of America) . And they had a funny system of making huge overdraft fees by taking a list of payouts and instead of taking them by date, they took them by size. So if you had three for $25.00 and one for $75.00, they would take the $75.00 first then the $25.00 afterwards, which meant of for some reason you only had $75.00 in your Account then you would get hit with three overdrafts instead of one. This caused a lot of people to have accounts way into the negative.

   Well they finally got taken to court about this over a year ago , and they lost. We thought that because our account was left in the negative that we would not get any money from them. But low and behold today in the mail we got a check ! Ok now let me drop back a bit lol I guess I got carried away with this lol. For a little over a week I have had my facebook deactivated and those who know the wife have not said anything as in where am I . Well for the past couple of nights I have been thinking about what can I do to get out of this huge slump I am in? I mean I am trying to reinvent myself so I can feel better about me. I know I am the only one who can do that.

   One night I went on a drinking binge ( not a good idea ) . It did help me get some of my feelings out tho. I am realizing that I have to do things for myself to feel better even tho there are some things I can not change. I was thinking of dying my hair pitch black , going monotone again ( expressing no feelings what so ever I have done that before) . And of course when you have a racing mind it can think of all sorts of things. I realize in my marriage I might not have the passion I need but I do have love. So I guess that is going to be a hard road still for me, but if I can put that on the back burner somehow and just keep going forward with other things I used to like to do maybe I can start to finally do better !

   Ok back to here and now ! I am looking at this check ( which was for $182.00 ) as a good sign, an omen to go for it ! We decided to split it right down the middle so I have $91.00 in which to do what I want ! And I think I am going to write about each purchase and why as well ! I haven't bought anything yet, but will be soon, maybe tomorrow or tonight, but like I said I will be writing about it when I do. I feel good about it too, all our bills are up to date and I am ready to start fresh !  One thing I will tell you I am buy from some money I had saved before ( because I can lol ) Is a rock hammer, I am going to start a new hobby of collecting certain kinds of rocks. More on that in future blogs as well :-)
 

My Trip To Walmart

 Ok I am writing a little differently today. I thought I would try and do a period piece lol. Well tomorrow I have a birthday party to go to ( my granddaughter's ) so I needed to pick up a  card. I also have a three gallon fish tank at home waiting for some fish! I have decided to go back to my old way of relaxing by having some of those enjoy full creatures around. Well the closest place to go here is Walmart.

 My Son needed to get a birthday gift as well so I went by Burger King where he works to pick him up. I got there a little early and decided to try their new fries called "Sater", now I don't know if it was the fries or the sprite I had but one of them played havoc with my intestines! You see I only drink water, sometimes milk but have cut soda out for a long time. So I don't know if that is what hit me wrong of those new fries. I will have to try them again without soda to be sure.

 We get to Walmart and I figure I would go to the pet department first and what do I see but the same sign I had seen for three days "At This Time We Can Not Sell Any Fish" . Well I decided to go to the service desk and find out what is going on . I asked a person there and they did not know so I had them ask a store manager. Well come to find out all of their fish are sick and they are waiting on medicine for them. I tell you that is not good business. I know what probably happen. They probably got some sick fish and only used one net for all the tanks and now all the fish are sick. Having helped build the live animal department in the Berkshire Museum and then worked in there for a year even I know you should use separate nets for each tank you have.

 Ok so that idea was shot down. I went and got a card for my granddaughter which I think she would like and ended up bumping into my other daughter and her daughter as well. I love my grandkids and always love to see them. My granddaughter came running up to me and gave me a big hug. That is one of the best feelings in the world to have a little one give you a sincere hug. I told her about the fish and what I thought happened and she agreed with me ( my daughter that is ). As we were walking thru the store my daughter ended up tripping on the floor, it had bubbled up. This is a Walmart which is being expanded to a super center! I am just glad she did not fall and hurt herself.

 So I guess some time this week it will be time to go to another store to get some fish ( maybe petco? ) I will not get any fish from Walmart now that is for sure.

HURT

"Hurt"(originally by Nine Inch Nails)

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

[Chorus:]
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Birth Of Darkness

The pain is heavy
No one helping the load
Brief moments of relaxation
Only to double the growth
I have given up on change
Too many years have passed
To only thicken the scars on my heart.

                                                WEW3

The Egg Shell

The Egg Shell

 

 

 

 

Just leave me here

Let me bleed

Let me feel the need

Darkness has become my friend

Where this is going

I see no end

This has been my life

and seems it will always be

 

                                          WEW3



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